Why can't I break the all or nothing mindset.....

Sunday night my family went out to Peter Lugar's steakhouse for my father's birthday. I didn't have a plan so I ate what I felt like.

Bread and crackers dipped in the steak sauce.
My half of steak for two.
German potatoes and creamed spinach.
And then for dessert....the hot fudge sundae....why???

Then Monday morning I had an early appointment and got up at 6:10 and didn't get my food ready so I stopped at good old Starbucks on the way to work and instead of just getting coffee, I also got a scone....why???

And then someone at work gives me a small bag of treats from a co-worker from an overseas office and a eat each treat one by one......why???
I need to break this all or nothing cycle. It is okay to have a little more at a meal but I need to end it there and not tack on dessert and then wake up the next day without a plan.

I need to PLAN my food as much as I plan everything else in my life. Why do I not stick to my plan of what to eat yet I stick to my other plans in life??

I planned to get into a certain profession and I succeeded.
I planned on buying my co-op and I succeeded.
I am now beginning my plan to buy a house and I will keep you updated when I succeed...notice I didn't say IF I succeed :)
I planned on participating in many fundraising events (BC 3day and TNT) and I succeeded.

So why can't I plan to lose weight and succeed???

Something to ponder on and I hope to come up with an answer :)

My first blog entry.....

A friend of mine, Joe Rockstar has a blog and I have to say I think it is really cool. So here I go creating my own blog. My plan (as I always have to plan) is to blog about life. Life consists of a couple of key "ideas".....

1) becoming a MRS. on July 31st

2) triathlete - goal is to do IMLP in 2011

3) weight issues - I gain and lose the same 20-40 pounds over and over

4) vino - I enjoy going to the vineyards, hosting wine tasting parties, making and drinking wine :)

Today, I have recommitted myself to eating healthy and getting this weight off.

Weigh in = 194

My goal for the "big day" is 155 (ultimate goal = 147)

My plan of action is...

1) for the eating part, I am going to following WW as this has worked for me in the passed however I am also going to use Insanity Meal Plan for ideas of different meals.

2) for the exericse part, I am going to workout to Insanity DVDs and start my Tri Training this week. I have 14 weeks until Eagleman. (I did this race last year which was my first 70.3 and at the end of it my boyfriend proposed to me!!!)

I just need to stick to writing everything down and following my exercise training plan and I should be good to go. My issue is I am either really, really good or really, really bad.

I have to remember that it doesn't have to be ALL or NOTHING. There is a happy medium and I just have to remember that. I may have to re-read this paragraph in a couple of hours, days or weeks :)

I hope you enjoyed my first "blog" and I will be sure to write again soon.